Following along from my up-beat post about Disney, I figured I would take a minute to write about how I feel I have changed over the past four years. I’ll be honest, I’m a bit mortified about this post but go easy on me.
When I first entered Stranmillis, I was a bright-eyed and bushy-tailed 18-year-old, ready to teach the future generation of tomorrow. Now, here I am, writing this post as a tired and fed-up 22-year-old. And I’m not saying that I’m tired and fed-up of teaching, I’m not. I just feel that I need to try and do other things before I get a ‘real’ job.
Four years ago, when deciding what university to choose, I was adamant that I wouldn’t go away. I couldn’t possibly leave my mum and while I’m not a home-bird, I just felt like a fish out of water when I visited universities across the pond. But now, four years later, I’m currently mapping out where I’m going to go next. After living in Orlando in the States and Poznań in Poland, I’ve found that I am capable of living away from home and that I’m much more independent than I thought I was. I also recently had the opportunity to observe and teach in a British school in Dubai which was the most surreal experience.
I know that writing this, it sounds as though my primary teaching degree could be the biggest waste of my time. But I know it isn’t or at least I think it won’t be. I have learned a lot over the course of my degree and it’s presented me with tons of opportunities. I’m a lot more confident as a person and my personal skills have developed ten-fold. And I never would have caught my bug for travelling if I hadn’t gone to Stranmillis. I also know that maybe some-day I will come back and try to get a primary teaching job, maybe after what seems to be a quarter-life crisis.
I guess what this diary-esque post is trying to say is: don’t limit yourself with your choices. There are lots of opportunities that will open and close throughout your life. I think when leaving school, kids are expected to know exactly what you want and are going to do for the rest of your life. But that’s not true. The saying: one door closes as another opens is so painfully accurate and if you don’t open yourself to other possibilities, you’ll never learn things about yourself that you never knew.
Maybe I never will leave Bangor, maybe I will. Who knows? But that’s okay.